Last blog post of the school year! I might post during the summer but probably not very much if at all.  So I was going to write a longer one today because its the last one of the year, but honestly I am just uber tired right now and can hardly keep my eyes open.  So here's some really great music that I'm sure you have heard at least once in your life.  Yay.

Today seems very melancholy.  I don't think it's the weather, though that adds to it I guess.  It just seems like today is not a day to be happy.  I've been feeling that lately, and I don't know why, or maybe I do and I just don't want to know why.  I have this sense of complete dread.  Fear of the truth and fear that I want the truth more than the lies that are easy to live?  Fear of accepting it because if I face it, then its real, then I can't turn back, then I have to move on with my life.
And if things don't turn out the way I perfectly and desperately want them to, does that mean that they don't turn out right?  Probably not.
When there are those distractions of life, I can forget, but then I lay in bed trying to go to sleep and there's no one here but me and I can't even control my mind.  No willpower?  Or simply no hope.
And of course, it will all work out.  Time will pass, this intangible concept that humans base their lives around.  And I will figure it out.  Or not.  Hopefully I don't die having no idea that I lived.

No.  I know I won't die not knowing that I lived.  I have just got to get off my ass and face this shit and make things right, or at least to the best that I can for myself and hope everything else falls into place around me.  I guess I have just been holding on so tightly to this concept that everything has to work out and be the same as it was and I have to stay this because if I don't its a personal failure?  But I feel like I'm failing everyday, like I will never get there no matter how hard I try, and maybe that's because I've been going in the wrong direction.  Or going in the right direction with the wrong concepts.

Anyway, here's a couple songs by Alexi Murdoch.  They were both featured in Away We Go, which is a movie I quite enjoyed.

On Saturday my dad and his girlfriend are getting married.  Exciting right?!  So her parents are here and everyone's been bustling around our one story incredibly long but incredibly skinny house crowded with "stuff" and many many many people and making cakes and arranging food and cleaning and messing things up and cleaning again and love is in the air, but stress and anticipation is also in the air............
However.
It's all pretty fun once everyone has a couple drinks and relaxes and we can sit back and look at the pretty lights set up outside for the wedding and each of us think "secretly" of how many opportunities we will get to sneak off into the darkness with our significant others....... and of course we get to listen to the record player my dad got for his birthday!  I love it; I will just sit by that thing for hours listening to records I just love the grainy sound and the fact that I get to put the needle on and EVERYTHING.  So one of the records we've been listening to is Herb Alpert's Whipped Cream, with the picture that every young boy used to have on his wall.

 

Yup, there she is.

And here's one of my favorite songs on the album, and a famous one too.

As we are nearing the end of the year, I am nearing the end of this blog.  I guess I may still post on it sometimes during the summer, and it is an English assignment that I enjoy doing because I do love music, but to tell you the truth, I probably won't post hardly at all if anything this summer (no offense to Mr. Elkin, I do love this assignment!) So I just wanted to give all my diligent followers (because I have soooo many) the heads up that this is one of the last few posts I will be doing.  What to post?  Hmmm...  Thinking about my last post about Beach House, the Yeah Yeah Yeah's come to my head because for some reason they remind me of Beach House in a weird way... shall I?  I also want to post some Creedence Clearwater, Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, Queen, Beatles, Springsteen, Cat Stevens, Bob Marley, Bob Dylan, Ziggy, Micheal Franti, Van Morrison, oh the list just goes on and on and there's soo many I haven't posted yet!  Hey, maybe I will continue this blog this summer....
Ah.  I have one.  Why? the band Why? is one of my favorite alternative indie rock hop etc. etc. band.  Kind of like The Pixies, they have this feeling of creepy-ish weird tones and a edgy sound.  Enjoy!

Ahhh Beach House.  I haven't talked to many people who have heard of them, but I love them!  I can remember the moment I heard them for the first time and fell in love with them so clearly!  They are a band from Baltimore, but actually I think the lead singer Victoria Legrand is French-born.. which just makes her name even more awesome.  And some people think she is a man when they first hear her voice which kind of makes sense to me for some reason... she has kind of a manly face I guess.  Buuuuuttttttt, she is awesome.  And Baltimore is awesome too.  Or so I've heard.  And so are white fur-lined recording studios........
This song is from their LP Teen Dream, listen to it a couple times and then go look up their other stuff because it's all great!!

My best friend is named Kalyja and she is amazing!  She is this absolutely beautiful talented hilarious great young woman and she has an amazing voice!  She writes her own songs (music and lyrics) and plays the guitar with them and she is just such an awesome person, if you knew her you would know what I'm talking about. She is so jazzy and spunky and I am honored to call her my best friend.  Here's a video of her singing a song she wrote, not very good quality video but still awesome!  Enjoy! :)

 

And here's the link to the video on YouTube so that you can check out her other videos on her channel if you want!